I did the requisite "be pathetic and try to explain this to profs" thing for most of today. I wish they'd be a little less sympathetic, because then I'd feel more comfortable logically explaining why I need to drop Theocomp and take Adv. Algorithms next semester instead. I wouldn't feel so much like I'm taking advantage of Ran's kindness, and I wouldn't be so fucking frustrated in general.
I've taken more than 18 units every semester except the ones where I broke stuff. I deserve to graduate! I don't konw if I could deal with a semester at Mudd knowing almost nobody really well. Without Rick to deal with me when I feel like breaking necks or Marty to make me laugh for absolutely no reason at all... and so many others.
At least its nowhere near as bad as it could have been, and I'll be able to come back this semester, and possibly even graduate if my schedule comes out perfect and they count 3 different units of research as an elective.